Insights not Spite

Tuesday, April 30th During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I needed to know for today.  I then heard an internal voice say, “Have you had any Presence?” I Googled the definition.  It means a person or thing that exists or is present in a place, but not seen: ghost, spirit.  A couple times I have felt a connection to a presence during meditation.  I want to make more of an effort connecting to spirits that have past to the other side, especially my family members. 5/1/19: Update: I received a message on my work phone, and the clients voice sounded exactly like my diseased mother’s voice.  It was spooky and triggering in a negative way all at the same time.  The voice was old, raspy, and sounded tired.  The tone was manipulative and and had an underling feeling of sadness and disappointment.  This is how my mom sounded and acted in her older age when she was alive on this earth.  I love my mom, but I am so happy and grateful that I don’t have to engage wit

Monday, April 29th During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I needed to know for today. I then heard an internal voice say in my son Mason’s voice, “You won the amount on everything!”   That was very exciting news to hear!!  I just don’t know when or how this will occur.  Gives me something fun to looking forward to! 4/29/19:  Update: My son Mason texted me this afternoon.  He stated I would win 16 million dollars!  I never shared what Somoya said with him or my wife.  That was a super cool synchronistic moment. 

Sunday, April 28th During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I needed to know for today.  I then heard an internal voice say, "Vince Lombardi." Last year I read the biography of Vince Lombardi, "When Pride Still Mattered".  It was a fantastic book.  It was about a flawed man who created incredible outcomes, due to his deep faith in God, sheer discipline, patience, and persistence.  He inspired football players to push their own personal limits, therefore creating the best overall football team in history:  THE GREEN BAY PACKERS!  It took Vince Lombardi twenty years to achieve his first goal:  becoming a general manager and a professional football coach.  This job landed him in Wisconsin.  After that, his team won a total of five Super Bowls during his career! Vince Lombardi's qualities as a human being has inspired me in my quest to make my dream to come to fruition: make my cognitive method the best available resource out there to emp

Saturday, April 27th During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I needed to know for today.  I then heard an internal voice say, "A lot of people driving crazy." When my wife awoke, I shared Somoya's message.  I stated we didn't need to be scared, but just more aware when running errands today.  Kels agreed. 4//28/19 Update: I took my wife and son to see the Tulip Festival.  The traffic and people’s driving was crazy! There was a huge semi truck accident that shut down I-5 south when heading home.  It caught fire.  We had to find alternate routes to get home.  Our commute took twice as long.  Since we were all flexible, we made the most of the inconvenience.  We joked, laughed, and song to songs on the radio.

Saturday, April 27th During the middle of the night, before getting up to use the restroom, I heard another message.  I heard an internal voice say, "Michelle says hi."  The only Michelle I am aware of is my wife's friend. I shared this with Kels in the morning when she woke up.  She found it amusing.  I told Kels to wait to see if she texts her in the next few days.

Saturday, April 27th During the middle of the night, before waking to use the restroom, I received another message.  I heard an internal voice say, "I don't know.  So I tried it all."  I feel this message could pertain to myself and to my wife.  For me, it is getting more paid opportunities to present and/or train.  For my wife, she wants to know how she can become more psychic.

Saturday, April 27th During the middle of the night, before getting out of be to use the restroom, I heard an internal voice say, "It's young and beautiful, but not like you!"  I feel this is referring to my new relationship with my Spirit Guide Somoya.  But nothing is as beautiful as my loving relationship that I have with my wife Kels!

Friday, April 26th During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya a question out loud: "What fun things can Kels and I do today?!"  I then heard an internal voice say, "I just love being alone with you!" Kels has been on Spring break from teaching.  This is unusual for both of us to have Friday off together.  Honestly, I was hoping to have Somoya offer me some fun ideas to do with my wife.   When I got out of bed, my wife shared that she realized it would be best to run a bunch of errands today.  I asked if I could accompany her.  She was open.  I then told her what Somoya shared.  We both ended up having a fun afternoon together buying groceries and getting food for our bunnies.  I told my wife Kels we are so blessed that we can be happy and in love just being together, rather than always having to plan a fun adventure.  She offered up a warm smile and agreed.  

Thursday, April 25th During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I needed to know for today.  I then heard an internal voice say, "It's not all or nothing." I have ALWAYS struggled with striking a balance on a daily basis with the following:  food choices, work, relationships, and play.  I tend to "binge" with any of these.  I am working hard at creating a balance by being more flexible and going with the flow each day.  If I am successful with this process, then it will be easier to strike a balance with every aspect of my life.  In addition, I will avoid a daily emotional roller coaster.

Tuesday, April 6th During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I needed to know for today.  I then heard an internal voice say, "Check in 6/6/19."  My wife and I are excited to see what this date will manifest!

Monday, April 22nd During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I needed to know for the day.  I then heard an internal voice say, "He has been doing this for years, obviously...nice."  This may be referring me to teaching OPA For Mental Health, LLC for almost 10 years.  This is my best guess.  Running groups on the unit and assisting people individually has become second nature.  I can plan and prepare a new group each day in just a few minutes.  I love teaching the OPA process and empowering others!  

Wednesday, April 24th During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya a question.  I asked, "What is Kels big moment?"  I then heard an internal voice say, "When you open your heart to others." Kels and I saw a psychic a couple years ago.  Stephen the psychic stated Kels would have a big moment/shift in her life this year.  When I first shared the message with Kels she didn't see this as exciting, but as hard work.  Also she stated she didn't find such an action to be rewarding. I later did some research on the internet around opening ones heart to others.  I sent the links to my wife.  She stated she took the time to read the links and found them to be helpful and supportive.  I know it will be hard work for her, but I also am confident she will reap endless rewards from being more vulnerable.

Sunday, April 21st During the middle of the night, as I was waking to use the restroom, I heard an internal voice say, "Back drums."  I am not quite sure what this is referring to.  If I was to learn to play an instrument and be good at it, it most likely would be the drums.  My brother Pat had a drum set when he was young and I really enjoyed messing around on it.  Also, when I shared a house with several people in the 90's, they use to play music often and allow me the opportunity to play the drums.  That was a lot of fun!  I would be open to playing drums in the future.  I really enjoy music, but wasn't given the opportunity to try different instruments in school while growing up.

Friday, April 19th Before falling asleep, my wife and I were reading from a psychic book of ours.  We are hoping to make our future housing to manifest sometime soon.  Where we are currently living is quickly becoming too expensive for our combined incomes.  My wife and I both asked out loud what will our future housing look like.  As I was drifting off to sleep, I saw in black and white a large flat screen TV or mirror on a wall.  It happened in a flash, so I was uncertain.  Then I heard an internal voice say, "Power is saying."  When we had been reading the book, the author emphasized to ask the universe for what you want.   Asking for what I want is not something I am good at.  I grew up feeling guilty asking for what I want.  I learned through religion I should just be happy with my basic needs being met.  I also learned this from my mother.  My wife Kels is excellent at asking for what she wants, and often the universe delivers!  She doesn't feel bad abou

Sunday, April 21st During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what is our future housing going to look like? This was my wife Kels request.  I then heard an internal voice say, “Warm and dry places where they’re meant to be.” I shared Somoya’s message with my wife.  Kels was surprised.  Kels gut feeling was New Mexico.  We could go there, after Mason is an adult.  We both agreed we both would be happiest in a warmer climate, hopefully close to some body of water.  We are both excited about our future living opportunities!

Saturday, April 20th During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide what I needed to know for today.  I then heard an internal voice say, "Two push up situations." Last night my wife and I watched a documentary about yoga offering healing to a young woman living with anorexia.  Yoga transformed her life.  I was thinking about yoga during meditation.  I thought it would benefit our son Mason and I.  We could have Kelli my wife lead it at home.  I visualized myself being open to buying a yoga mat.  Then I heard Somoya's message: "Two push up situations."  I interpret the message to mean "push up"as associated with strength.  Use yoga to increase Mason's emotional release and strength.  "Push up" for me would relate to much needed core and overall physical strength. 

Friday, April 19th During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide what I needed to know for today.  I then heard an internal voice say, "I have no regrets." This last Monday, I received an insight on my meditation walk to create as many happy moments for others and for myself on a daily basis.  I was inspired by a huge message written on both sides of a car along my walk to work.  The message said, "Life is not made up of days, but by Moments."  I decided not to just look forward to Friday thru Sunday as potentially fun days, but to make everyday memorable, even my workdays. The more I create happy moments, instead of waiting for life to make me happy, will raise my energy vibe and transform me for the better!   Most of us are searching for happiness in others, material things, food, travel, and jobs.  When all along we each have the power to create our own happiness and happiness for others, by choosing to manifest happy moments, on any day, at anyti

Thursday, April 18th During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I needed to know for today.  I then heard an internal voice say, "It's this moment that brings you a win fall of luck!"  I had my cognitive behavioral method on my mind just before hearing Somoya's message. Today, I finally found the right moment to speak with Kate McNulty about collecting data, in hopes of making my cognitive behavioral method evidence based someday.  I have had to wait a couple months for this opportunity.  Kate is now the director of all three psych units.  She is very busy with meetings and tasks each day.  I hardly see her anymore. When Kate walked onto my unit this morning, she literally granted me a couple minutes to speak.  I first acknowledged that she was a very busy person.   Out of respect of her time, I stated I would be happy to email and set up a day and time to talk.  She then asked, "What is this all about?"  I reminded her that Laura C

Tuesday, April 16th During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide what I needed to know for today.  I then heard an internal voice say, "I am not going to be a pushover." In general, I have a tendency to want to please people.   In the past, I have gotten scared to say no to others.  I don't do well with people being upset and mad at me.  I have learned from other behavioral health specialists, that when others react to my healthy limits and boundaries, that is ALWAYS information about them, not to take it personally.  For example, say you set healthy limits or boundaries with family, friends, co-workers, supervisors, partner, children, etc., and they react negatively to it.  They need to change their behavior... not you!  I am learning that setting healthy limits and boundaries consistently with anyone everyday, is best in preserving my health and wellness.

Monday, April 15th During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I needed to know for today.  I then heard an internal voice say, “Go. Go. Go. Go with the flow.” I had to be super flexible with my morning routine at work.  It didn’t go as I planned on paper.  Since I chose to be flex, it lead to me not reacting.  I was not anxious and upset.  My morning went great: clients needs were eventually met, maintained excellent boundaries, and had lunch on time as a result of my fluid actions. Thank you Somoya for giving me heads up before work.  Your message made for a much better day!

Sunday, April 14th During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I needed to know for today.  I then heard an internal voice say, “I want to be proud of my son.  I want to be proud of me.” Both my son and I have been diagnosed and live with learning challenges.  Our experience in how to maneuver through the world is more difficult than those who don’t live with learning challenges. Succeeding in academics is very hard for both of us.  As a result, it affects our self-esteem and limits our career opportunities. We need to be open, creative, and think outside the box in order to be happy and successful.  I recognize my skill-set with assisting people with their mental health recovery is a gift.  I am excellent in how I support others, offer tools, and hope.  The trick was I had to radically accept the pay was OK, in order to keep doing what I love!  I need to appreciate my daily needs are met.  Therefore, I can be proud of myself.  I am healthy and successful at meet

Saturday, April 13th Before starting my morning meditation, I read a text that my niece Danielle had her baby boy!  His name is Easton.  That makes me a Great Uncle for the first time.  The family as a whole is super excited for his arrival. Next, I did my morning meditation and asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I needed to know for today.  I then heard three messages: 1) “Hearing the pairing of a beautiful relationship.”  Obviously, this was about Danielle and her son Easton.  I am so happy for the both of them! 2) “Each got a seat.  I don’t even know what trip I ordered.”  I am not sure what this is referring to.  A wait and see... 3) “Wait until the 20th!”  I was thinking about what are family should do for future housing.  If we received OK to rent one of Nina’s father’s rentals, we could then give early notice, which the landlord would appreciate.

Friday, April 12th During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya two questions:  Will Eric commit to presentations/trainings re: my business.  Also, what I needed to know for today.  I then heard an internal voice say, "Flight." Possibly this message is referring to Eric or my other guess is my nephew's wedding that is coming up.  My brother Brian's oldest son Kevin is getting married September 7th, 2019.  The wedding will be back in Baltimore, Maryland.  I easily get along with my brother Brian and his wife and children.  I would have a great time, if I went, if my wife chose not to go.  I haven't seen any of them in many years.  I will wait to see if I get an invite by mail, before giving it more thought. As far as Eric, I sent him a text about taking further action on setting up paid presentations and/or trainings this year in our community.  I haven't heard back in several days, but he also has been out sick.  I know I can trust him and h

Thursday, April 11th During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I needed to know for today.  I then heard an internal voice say, "Ask if she called.  We don't have it." I am grateful for Somoya's message.  It refers to housing.  This is helping me better serve a client at work.  I am having to use the cognitive behavioral method that I developed and Somoya's message to keep a client stable, in control of themselves, and rational, so that they can be ready for discharge soon.

Tuesday, April 9th During the middle of the night I heard an internal voice say, "Hate to be the bearer of bad news."  I was just about to get up to use the restroom.  Then during morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I needed to know for today.  I then heard an internal voice say, "My mom and dad are very close." My assumption is that Somoya is referring to a death in the family in the near future, based on the wording.  My dad is going to be 90 this coming December.  I had a wonderful 2 hour conversation with him over the phone last Friday.  He did mention he has a "spot overlooking Husky Stadium" at Calvary Cemetery.  This is also where my mom and her parents are buried.   My mom died two years ago.   Even though my parents divorced after 44 years of marriage, my parents were still very close.  My dad would read to her every day as she laid confined to a group home in the last stage of her life.  I am confident they will sti

Monday, April 8th During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I needed to know for today.  I then heard an internal voice say, "Someone else needs the bed." My wife and I were supposed to check out of Deer Harbor Resort on Orcas Island at 12pm.  Since the resort was so good at allowing us to check in early last Saturday, I passed on Somoya's message to my wife.  My wife said that if Somoya says to do it...we should do it. We both did an amazing job of being flexible, spontaneous, and going with the flow for the rest of the day.  We didn't need to catch a ferry till 5:15pm.  We spent the time getting coffee, exploring the Island, visiting a museum, having lunch at our favorite restaurant, hanging at a bar on the waterfront, and listening to live music while drinking ciders at the ferry terminal.  After our adventure, both my wife and I saw and counted a total of 34 deer over three days. It was more like Deer Island, than Deer Harbor!

Sunday, April 7th During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I needed to know for today.  I then heard an internal voice say, "He is untouchable."   Last evening, my wife and I were having an soak in our private hot tub at Deer Harbor Resort.  We were having a variety of wonderful and spontaneous conversations:  some light and funny, others deep and philosophical.  One meaning conversation was about how we spend our time on this earth/our journey.  My wife made a comment about how she didn't know whether it is luck or karma or both that allows some to escape serious consequences for their poor choices, while others get screwed the first time they veer off their path.  It is a great question, which I and no human being will never have the answer to.   Kelly's comment lead to me thinking about the Bible.  This infamous book is all about choices and natural consequences.  Both Kelly and I agreed it is the most well known and read book in hu

Saturday, April 6th During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I needed to know for today.  I then heard an internal voice say, "Be flexible." My wife Kelly and I are heading to Orcas Island in the San Juans this morning.  This has been our mini vacation/anniversary get away for the last two years.  We are spending two nights/three days at Deer Harbor.  Per history, almost every vacation we have taken together, I have not shown flexibility.  When I am not flexible, my mood ends up ruining the day or sometimes the entire trip, which is terrible for both of us.  Not being flexible dampens the fun.   When I heard this message from Somoya, I knew I needed to own this and be open to change.  I recognized in the moment I need to go with the flow.  I gained the insight that any situation can be fun, if one is willing to be flexible.  I realized that without me being flexible, I affect everyone's mood.    For example, when I am scared, anxious, and/or wo

Friday, April 5th During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I needed to know for today.  I then heard an internal voice say, "Coffee shop." I knew immediately this was referring to my wife Kels and son Mason.  I have Fridays off from my "day job", and usually drive her and Mason to their destinations.  She sometimes gets herself or both of us a coffee and Mason a treat.  Somoya's message made me excited to surprise both of them with a treat!  I jumped out of bed and said, "Would you like a coffee?!"  Kels said in a loving voice, "I would love one!"   Her love showed even more so in her beautiful green eyes and warm smile.  I then asked our son.  He was genuinely surprised, happy, and perplexed all at the same time that Somoya suggested me treating. Later on Mason asked me several open ended questions with excitement:  What do you see when you speak to Somoya when you are meditating?!  What does she look like?!  Can

Thursday, April 4th During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I needed to know for the day.  I then heard an internal voice say, "We both made the decision." When hearing this message from Somoya, I realized I have put off two wills:  One in which our son's birth mother and I need to do.  It is 9 years over due!  Also, Kelli and I need to do one for ourselves.  I have been procrastinating on both.  The former, cause I don't want to deal with my ex-wife in another lengthy process. The latter, due to not wanting to think about carrying on without my loving and extremely supportive wife Kels.  I know when I pass this information on to Kels, she and I will easily make the decision to take action and "Getter Done!"  That is just the way she is.  I so love that about her.  Fear is not the essence of who she is.  She is a Scorpio.  My goal is to complete the will with Kels first this year.  I will then feel more informed and confident to

Wednesday, April 3rd During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I needed to know for today.  I then heard an internal voice say, "What are you doing snakes?" The term "snakes" is a word I use to describe those I work with who are not ethical, don't follow rules, and talk behind my back-backstabbers.  Several "snakes" in my workplace have moved on in the past year.  It is not clear on whether or not they were asked to leave, or they left on their own volition.  Before their exits, I was very close to leaving my job that I am very passionate about, due to their behavior.   Currently, there are a few "snakes" that still remain.  I am much more hyper vigilant and mindful not to share or be trusting of these individuals.  I have to be very thoughtful about what I say and do as I move forward in my professional career.  I want to collaborate with the hospital and make my product available to as many people as possible

Tuesday, April 2nd During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I needed to know for today.  I then heard an internal voice say, “Like gold.” Yesterday, in a work email, I was surprised to see myself invited back to the Program Oversight Committee.  I was very passionate and truthful in the first meeting.  I wasn’t sure how that was going to go over with upper management.  The fact that I am being allowed to partake in future meetings, makes me think they really appreciate my input, candidness, and would like to see my cognitive method for managing stress and symptoms become evidence based.  My only logical guess is Somoya is saying my copyright is “Like gold.”  It has value and a lot of people want it. The more it is desired, the more it is worth!

Sunday, March 31st During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I need to know for today.  I then heard an internal voice say, “Don’t tell Harvey.”  I have no idea what this means.  I don’t have anyone in my life named Harvey.  Also, I don’t work with anyone named Harvey or have clients named Harvey.  Will just have to see what comes of this...