Insights not Spite

 During morning meditation I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I needed to know for today.  I heard, "Serenity now!" This is very helpful for me to hear when raising a teenager.  The serenity prayer is ingenious, yet extremely challenging to live by.  The prayer sets one free and offers tranquility when carried out.  

 During deep meditation I heard, "Are you OK?"  Since Friday, Mason's behavior has been extremely hurtful towards myself and Kels.  I will elaborate on this one later when I have more time.

During deep morning meditation I heard,"Marketing (free) to teens and youth."   

 During the beginning of meditation and visualizing myself suiting up, I heard,"Without hook up, as you say."

 During morning meditation I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I needed to know for today.  I heard, "You have ambition to apply to one of those companies.  You Haven't had that since high school." 

 During morning meditation I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I needed to know for today.  I heard, "Two pies."

 During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I needed to know for today.  I heard, "Jillian.  Are you up for chatting?"  A week ago I let my friend know that the Washington State had dissolved the business, due to lack of activity for a few years.  I gave it a good shot.  I tried for seven years.  Business isn't my strength.  Sharing information for free is more my style.  It speaks to me.  I learned this from a former doctor that I had years ago.  I feel not having a business anymore could possibly affect our friendship.  Only time was spent not money.  Most of the time we conversed about our lives and dealing with COVID.  She stated she was having an off day and forgot that we were conversing today.  Time will tell...I have learned not to force and just be patient with others.  Everyone processes information at a different rate.

 During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide what I needed to know for today.  I then heard, "Bestowed upon me."  My take away, I have many gifts granted to me from the universe:  My ability to heal: with my hands via Reiki, profound listener, sharing my story (presentations, trainings, facilitating groups), treatment massage, and creating and developing OPA For Mental Health.  Sharing OPA via in person groups and via Zoom for the community.  I love being an open conduit and serving a purpose on earth.  We all have a purpose.  The fun is discovering it and then utilizing and sharing our gifts daily with each other.  Everything I can't do makes me so grateful that there is someone else out there that can do it.  

During morning meditation, I asked my Spiritual Guide Somoya what I needed to know for today.  I then heard, "I did not turn this into a serious business."  If I was to be honest with myself, OPA For Mental Health, LLC was always a hobby.  I had paid gigs from time to time.  I have buy-in that info should be free.  Pay me for my time to present and train from time to time.  I love teaching and presenting and running groups, even if free most of the time.  Super fun to see people transform before my eyes in 30 minutes or less.  So much fun to empower people.  So much fun spreading, sharing and teaching universal knowledge with fellow human beings.  Feel true to myself, the universe and to others going this route-free information and group facilitation.

 At the start of my morning meditation I heard, "Incognito".   I haven't been comfortable showing my face on Zoom, due to anxiety, when offering my weekly OPA support groups.  Today, I decided to show my face.  Things went really well and I felt less anxious.  I could tell the community felt more comfortable knowing who was delivery the information.  I prefer when others turn off their screen.  Less distracting with my ADD.  

 During morning meditation, I asked Jenja if Kels was getting the law firm job and loving it.  I immediately heard, "Yes." Later she informed me that the job was more sales and less compensation.  She would get the job and love the sales aspect, but not getting paid what she is worth.  Plus she stated less time for family and for herself.  Doesn't seem like a good ROI in the long run.  She has no problem finding jobs and interviewing.  The challenge is finding the right fit and compensation for her time and effort.  Most of all she wants to be appreciated for her efforts and contributions.  That is important to all of us, but few companies are good at genuinely delivering this to their employees.  

During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I needed to know for today.  I then heard, "Gagh" spelled out.  I Googled and the only thing that came up was a Star Trek delicacy-eating live worms.  Very strange.  I am not a trekkie.  I don't speak to others at work about Star Trek.  Not sure what this is about. 

During morning meditation and visualizing the forest I heard, "This is what he chose."  I found out a couple days later that my supervisor is choosing to poach a peer specialist from another program.  We are interviewing her next Tuesday.  This will meet our need for diversity.  I have been fighting for a diverse team for several years.   

During morning meditation while visualizing myself suiting up I heard, "All or nothing."  While riding during the winter, I have come to realize that I am an "all or nothing" type of personality.  For me to be successful at anything, I have to be all in, not half committed, or fair weather.  For example, my relationships with friends, marriage, my son, career, sharing and teaching OPA For Mental Health and now being a daily commuter by bike.  I definitely could not be successful at riding my bike and staying in shape if I just road when I wanted to or when the weather was appealing.  I am finally feeling great physically, cause I do it every workday.  Skipping a day is not an option, unless snow and ice is on the roads.  Then I will either walk to work or ride the bus.  Either way I will still end up getting some form of exercise until I can ride again.  

 During the beginning of my meditation while visualizing the forest, I heard, "Got to be in control.  Act and not react."  My loved ones were off today.  Both were emotional and reacting.  Hearing this message ahead of time really helped me be understanding, compassionate and loving.  I therefore didn't react and stated in control of my own emotions.  

 During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I needed to know.  I then immediately heard, "Let people know what you are doing.  Email it first."  I had a strong feeling to take on my responsibilities: 1) Let Jillian know ASAP that the business was dissolved by the state 2) Communicate with Sally: 1) Pay my share of Mason's medical cost when he went to the ED and for his acne meds  2) Let know buying sweatshirts, so Mason isn't hauling so much clothing back and forth 3) Write blog.  I have been avoiding and procrastinating, due to my body not liking early mornings.  Per my wife's suggestion, I will try once a week entries on Sundays

During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Jenja an astronomical question for my friend Jillian, per her request.  She wanted to know if and when she would her future love in Ireland.  After I asked Jenja the question I immediately heard, "Yes.  December." I passed on the information to Jillian.  She was happy to receive the news.  

 At the beginning of my meditation, I heard, "One million dollar lawsuit."  Not sure what this is referring to.  

During morning meditation, while visualizing myself suiting up, I heard, "The only anger is the one you have for one another." 

 At the beginning of my meditation process, I heard, "Nice job on your recovery process."