It's on the Other Side
Sunday, March 17th
Happy St. Patrick's Day, bye the way!
During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I needed to know for today. I then heard an internal voice say, "It's on the other side." My logic and feeling in the moment was compassion "being on the other side."
I am running late this morning. I had promised our son Mason that I would wake him at 7:30am. He wanted to get a bike ride in, before making bread and me receiving tax assistance. My concern is he won't have compassion for me oversleeping. When Mason gets mad, he often acts passive/aggressive. It is not that we are not going for a bike ride. We are just starting the ride later than expected.
As a result of oversleeping, getting Mason's wants met (cycling and bread making), and my needs met (tax return assistance), I felt very pressured, due to the time constraints of the day. Managing limited time, often leads to my frustration and anger towards myself. Too much thinking/processing is a time sucker, which I am guilty of. I struggle with letting go and trusting myself with making smooth transitions from one activity to another throughout the day. Others misinterpret my frustration/anger, as if I am angry at them, but I am just putting off negative vibes, due to lack of compassion for myself. I just need space to process, calm down, and release judgment towards myself. I don't need to be "fixed" or have the "situation fixed".
It is OK for me to feel and express frustration and anger. I just need to keep on working on having compassion for myself, in spite of my limitations. Eventually, my internal compassion will naturally make my frustration/anger towards myself subside. Like Somoya stated about compassion: It is on the other side. I believe this to be true. I just want to create it for myself on the inside. Without learning compassion for myself, I can't begin to receive compassion "from the other side".
Happy St. Patrick's Day, bye the way!
During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I needed to know for today. I then heard an internal voice say, "It's on the other side." My logic and feeling in the moment was compassion "being on the other side."
I am running late this morning. I had promised our son Mason that I would wake him at 7:30am. He wanted to get a bike ride in, before making bread and me receiving tax assistance. My concern is he won't have compassion for me oversleeping. When Mason gets mad, he often acts passive/aggressive. It is not that we are not going for a bike ride. We are just starting the ride later than expected.
As a result of oversleeping, getting Mason's wants met (cycling and bread making), and my needs met (tax return assistance), I felt very pressured, due to the time constraints of the day. Managing limited time, often leads to my frustration and anger towards myself. Too much thinking/processing is a time sucker, which I am guilty of. I struggle with letting go and trusting myself with making smooth transitions from one activity to another throughout the day. Others misinterpret my frustration/anger, as if I am angry at them, but I am just putting off negative vibes, due to lack of compassion for myself. I just need space to process, calm down, and release judgment towards myself. I don't need to be "fixed" or have the "situation fixed".
It is OK for me to feel and express frustration and anger. I just need to keep on working on having compassion for myself, in spite of my limitations. Eventually, my internal compassion will naturally make my frustration/anger towards myself subside. Like Somoya stated about compassion: It is on the other side. I believe this to be true. I just want to create it for myself on the inside. Without learning compassion for myself, I can't begin to receive compassion "from the other side".
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