You Will Miss Me A lot
Sunday, October 21st
During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I needed to know for today. I then internally heard, "You will miss me a lot." I felt the feeling was tied both into my current workplace and to my son.
Last Thursday I announced to my supervisor that I am actively looking for a new job. She is in support of my decision, based on the recent trauma I have undergone. She is willing to assist with my resume and willing to be a reference. I need to move on. I am often being triggered by my clients when there is conversation around suicide or the client having a plan. I have lost two of my siblings to suicide over the past 11 years. I have lost two of my clients to suicide in less than a year. I haven't had time to process it all or heal fully, without having to worry about current clients. I am not sure what my next job will be, but I want to remain of service to the community. I have been at my current workplace for almost ten years.
As for my son, I believe this pertains to the fact that I am starting to make my consulting business come alive. I am teaming up with my good friend Eric, who is a psychologist. We plan to present and give trainings out in the community. Saturdays will be our day to make this come to fruition. Therefore, I will do my best not to have trainings on the Saturdays that we have our son, but some Saturdays may be unavoidable. Our son has always received my undivided attention every other weekend.
During morning meditation, I asked my Spirit Guide Somoya what I needed to know for today. I then internally heard, "You will miss me a lot." I felt the feeling was tied both into my current workplace and to my son.
Last Thursday I announced to my supervisor that I am actively looking for a new job. She is in support of my decision, based on the recent trauma I have undergone. She is willing to assist with my resume and willing to be a reference. I need to move on. I am often being triggered by my clients when there is conversation around suicide or the client having a plan. I have lost two of my siblings to suicide over the past 11 years. I have lost two of my clients to suicide in less than a year. I haven't had time to process it all or heal fully, without having to worry about current clients. I am not sure what my next job will be, but I want to remain of service to the community. I have been at my current workplace for almost ten years.
As for my son, I believe this pertains to the fact that I am starting to make my consulting business come alive. I am teaming up with my good friend Eric, who is a psychologist. We plan to present and give trainings out in the community. Saturdays will be our day to make this come to fruition. Therefore, I will do my best not to have trainings on the Saturdays that we have our son, but some Saturdays may be unavoidable. Our son has always received my undivided attention every other weekend.
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