"I Think You Need to Work toward Your Journeys."

Thursday, September 20th

During morning meditation I internally heard, "I think you need to work toward your journeys."  I at first didn't quite understand.  I have always looked at life as one journey...not multiple journeys.  I believe this pertains to multiple goals/skill-sets that I have:  Living a healthy lifestyle, being a good husband and father, doing a good job at my employment, being a good friend to my friends, growing my consulting business for mental health, practicing Reiki, meditation and blogging, and being psychic for myself and others.   I need to strongly believe that all can be balanced and practiced daily.  

Lately I have been more worried and focused about the journeys of my wife and son.  Both are embarking on new journeys of their own this late summer/early fall.  Everyone is getting much busier, which easily can lead to disconnect and weaker relationships, if the hard work isn't done to communicate and make efforts to be close often, things will fall apart.  

As a result of all this new busyness, I feel hurt that my wife is choosing football over family time this coming Sunday and possibly future Sundays this season.  The last three weeks have been extremely challenging with physical ailments, fatigue, and lack of quality time spent together alone and as a family.   

I recognize that my wife has known football and has a deep passion for it, decades before she ever met me.  I can't compete with the PACK or beat that fact.  My intention is not to interfere or squelch her passion.  If a game isn't on TV on the days we have our son, I just wish she would forgo the bars and have family time with us.  But that will only make her sad.  The weekends, months, and years are running out quickly to enjoy our son Mason, before he becomes a teenager that wants nothing to do with us...especially on the weekends!  There will always be football.  But that is only my opinion.  

My fact:  My son and I just love Kels so very much!!  We both just enjoy her company and companionship.  She brings so much joy to our lives, when both of us have had some much sadness over the years.  We are trying our best to be independent and strike a balance ourselves.