Insights not Spite

During morning meditation, I asked my spirit guide Jenja an astronomical question:  "What do I need to know for my 49th year of life?"  I then heard, "Peace." I have consciously decided that I am devoting the second half of my life to achieving peace within and out in the community.  I am going to be the best version of myself.  I am going to offer healing in many ways using many of my gifts that the universe has bestowed upon me.  

 During morning meditation while in the forest, I heard, "Managing Anger."  Again, I am do my best to manage the anger I feel around a client I am serving who is not receiving appropriate services over 8 months.  I have never done an OPA to manage anger.  I want to do this ASAP.  Anger is an internal signal that something is wrong. 

 During morning meditation, while suiting up, I heard, "Venting."  I feel this pertains to work.  I have been strongly advocating for a client of mind that hasn't received proper services for over 8 months.  He is a minority.  I am seeing a pattern in my caseload.  

During morning meditation, while at the gazebo, I heard, "You can't be reliant with everything being on the counter."  I really struggle clearing the kitchen counter of some mail and other stuff, cause anxiety of out of sight out of mind.  I don't want to forget or misplace things I need: paying bills and all my charging stuff for bike lights. It has always lowered my anxiety when I can see things out in the open, cause I have such a poor memory and I am very afraid of forgetting and making mistakes-learning behavior from my mom and dad as a child.  I feel this is apart of my shadow work.  I am working on it.

 During morning meditation, while suiting up, I heard, "It's just miscommunication." Retrograde is FINALLY over!

Heard in the middle of the night while awaking to use the bathroom, "Do the work."